I’ve missed more than a few posts lately, and I can’t remember the last time I sent out my weekly newsletter that is supposed to go out every Tuesday.
I really *was* busy at first with my house move, then it was a challenge to get our internet service set up. But that has been resolved since early September. The truth is, I’ve just been feeling demotivated.
I was set to write an article for my favorite magazine. I’d been dreaming of writing for them since I first launched my new career as a health coach and health writer. After a well thought out query to the right editor, my pitch was accepted! I was really on cloud nine. As many writers know, magazines often have a 4-6 month lead-time … so I wasn’t surprised when the editor told me that my piece was slated for the March issue & that she would be in touch in August with the formal assignment & a due date in September.
August came, I followed up. September came, I followed up. October? Still followed up, but starting to get the message. While it is actually par for the course to be ignored by an editor to whom you send a query or pitch, I thought it was incredibly strange to get the cold-shoulder after a response & tentative due date? I let it totally wreck my confidence (well, that and the many other flat-out “no’s” and cold-shoulders I’ve gotten since August).
I’m not thin-skinned at all. I actually welcome a rejection letter! At least I know that my idea was considered & perhaps not right or coming at the right time.
So rather than write about rejection when I myself was feeling de-motivated, I chose silence. I guess I should also add that I haven’t been getting ANY comments on any of my posts, so I have to wonder if anyone is even reading my blog anymore????
I’m not one who gives up easily, so here I am today trying to keep it real, taking a deep breath, and setting a personal goal to keep writing & keep reaching for my own dreams. I read an awesome article today by Jeffrey Eugenides (the guy who wrote Middlesex & The Virgin Suicides) called How To Believe in Yourself – Even If You Sometimes Don’t. In the article, he talks about his journey as a writer & how he has dealt with own fears & anxieties. It is a great story about he came to realize that inspiration comes from within. It gave me the motivation to pick up my laptop & compose this post when all I really wanted to do was sleep all day! Give it a read!
Oh, and if you read this post … please leave me a comment so that I know someone out there is STILL … well … out there!